I cant believe that I had the best and the worst day with you in a week. Things are happened all of the sudden which really out of my expectation. We cant go back. I just want the old times back. I screwed it up. But for sure, I didnt mean to do in this way and it was not my plan to move on. I dont know how are we going on and ... I have thousands of questions in my head. I want to keep everything simlpe, no complicated., no doubt, no playing any games. Its hard. I realize I should follow my own feeling, not changed my mind by others easily. I still glad that I am not alone when I am in need of. I take all the suggestions, but is me to make the decision and my responsibilty to carry the result.

OH, my mom's calling and she reminds me I have to study hard...

AND its damn annoying when I was misunderstood.